On leave

I was on leave yesterday, it was a sudden plan. I took leave because mum cleared her last piece of annual leave yesterday, and since I've not had breakfast with her such a long time, I took mine as well, as to give myself a rest.

Although the off day wasn't really a rest day for me, I find it productive and well, I'm satisfied. Since brother is still having his holiday due to PMR, we went Dim Sum at Taman Muda, having Dim Sum on Monday its not a good choice at all, they have lack of choices, and I find that their Dim Sum has low standards already, in fact, the one at Taman Connaught taste better I would say. We went home after breakfast, because the weather was horribly hot, it brought down our mood for shopping. So we decided to head home for few rounds of Rummykub instead. Have you tried your hands on Rummykub instead of Rummy? It has similarity in between though. Go google it and find out how to play, figure it out and we shall have a game 1 day :D Its addictive.

This is Rummykub.

Go quick and find out how is it being played, its a game of manipulation, its fun and exciting! Sorry la I'm not good in explanation. Its better that you find out yourself, or I can teach you ^^.

Birthday Bash

The initial plan for my 21st Birthday was just mere eating session with the youths like how Jamie used to had it. But after much considerations and discussions, parents finally came to a stage where they said why not make it better? When it comes to a great or rather a more organized event, you tend to get weak response or what you have in mind and the progression is not smooth sailing. What I am trying to say is that the preparation for this bash wasn't smooth at all :) From the chosen date which was 19th due to the reason for waiting the Aunt's homecoming from Jakarta, postpone it to 20th, but the caterer (apparently, is dad's friend) couldn't make it for some reason, so it was then postponed again to 21st, but Jamie has taken an emcee job so she will not be able to join. Funny part was, we received news from dad's friend claiming that he can make it for us on Sunday, but mum had already gotten a better catering package from a student's parent. Too bad.

Well, I wasn't preparing much for this thing, but mum instead. She was so excited like as if it is her big day, went to church and do the invitation, asking the youths around and remind them! What I'm much concerned was the weather because I didn't want a canopy, and I bet you guys know the weather isn't pleasing recently. The rain poured the whole day on Saturday, and I sincerely thank God for yesterday that it drizzled just a little. I was so down at that moment when the drizzles became heavier, mum knows how miserable was I :) Cut it short, I really had a good good night peeps! And of course a special thanks to Nicolas, you are really always there for me. Oh ya Nic, I wanted to lay out the gifts nicely for you take a picture of it, but you've packed and gone when I though of it! :D

Happy Birthday!
picture credits to Vertigoblack

I gotta feeling

that tonight's gonna be a good night, that tonight will be a good good night!

Yep, fingers crossing that I'll enjoy my night! Finally, the long await day has finally here! Everything came up so abruptly, decisions, ideas, yes/no, in or out of budget its not an issue, have or no money just don't care, all I want is to enjoy having people around me, and snap snap snap pictures. Nicolas is holding a very high responsibility tonight, and he gotta play a very important and serious role to make this happen, and of course, every people who are going to attend this simple party, does make a part.

I'll love tonight, I'll be happy tonight too :)

And at least, the holes are mend a little now. I love you.

mourning morning

That is practically what I'm feeling at the moment. So emo, and I don't know how long it will last.

Its the second day of stepping into the life of a 21 years old. Nothing special, nothing less than special either. I literally felt a little disappointed for this year's birthday, despite that I was given surprise on the eve of birthday, thanks to Ning Xin, Desmond, Felix, Joshua and of course Eugene for getting them here. But ya, maybe was expecting too high that resulted the emofied me now. Ya, till now I'm still not getting over it, I wish I could change time, bring forward what had happened last year to this year.. But no, it will not happen.

What I can do now is to mend the holes, and shall not expect more as weekend approaches. I shall sit and stare, and let others do the rest.

Happy Birthday to Me.

funny, weird, horrendous dream.

When you are in your dreams, the plots will be either funny, sweet, weird, scary, wonderful, awesome. Sometimes it is too scary that you would want this horrifying dream to end just a click, or sometimes, you don't mind skipping classes or late for any appointments as long as you can stay longer in your dreams (sweet dream that is).

I had this rather thrilling dream, not to mention the dream I dreamed during Michael Jackson's departure. Basically the plot was 'Toothache and falling teeth'. The dream was so real that I literally felt the pain, even I was in dreamland. I got this very severe toothache then out of no where leads to tooth falling off my gum. Tooth by tooth falling off, bleeding non stop it was as if I was diagnosed with Leprosy! Then some tooth was like hesitating to leave it's comfort zone, attaching partly to my gum, I was so in pain that I extracted it with mere fingers. It bled more, and more. Mouth full of slimy reddy blood :S

Now that my jaw is feeling sourish while I type every parts of what had happened in my dream.

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On another happier note, age 21 is just mere few hours away from now. Having mix feelings tho. But anyway, again I would like to emphasize on the 'gift', hope its for real. So long peeps.

09/09/09

Its actually passed 5mins of 090909. Nonetheless, I would like to take this opportunity to blog something, though not interesting enough to make you hook on it, but something in me that I would like to pour out here.

090909 is indeed a special day, you'll only meet this auspicious day after 100 years. And some may ask what to hoo ha about this 090909? Do we really need to go out, spend some pennies and lets celebrate? Well, of course, it is all depending on how you perceive it. But come to think about it, how many person can live long life till the age of 100? So why not make it big? (like I had a great party)!

Hmm.. My 090909 was rather a mixture of misery and sigh of relieve.

Things happened today that made me real fussed and heart wrenching. I'm that type of person who will forgive and forget easily (depending on the seriousness of matter) But one thing for sure I can't tolerate is that people who don't keep promises, and still wanna argue as if they are not wrong at all. I know I'm always a loser in battling issues, even though its very obvious that I did nothing wrong, but always, always, I'll be the one losing. They'll just turn and say bye. What can I do at that heated moment?? I give them a tight slap or yell at them for being so selfish or whatever is it? NO, I can't do anything to them, not even a single foul word I utter even how frustrated I was. Releasing tears can ease the pain, I thought =(

On a brighter site, fulfill my job this week, by attending my student's tuition, cuz I always feel boring teaching on a Wednesday night. After 1 and a half hour of boredom, spread my wings and fly home within seconds (student's house is just 2 gates away from mine!) Grab my bag and left home again, all in together took me less than 4mins =D Eugene needs a hair cut badly, our ever loyal hairstylist is available at 9.30pm, headed there and went for supper right after the trim. I wanna be pretty and slim before 21st Birthday, now I guess I need an intensive diet plan as the day is approaching nearer and nearer. Super Supper for tonight, had Grilled BeanCurd, Butter Crab, Fried Four Angle Bean with Sambal, and 4 Tong Yun with Tou Fu Fa.. Food does miracles in humans' life, believe or not.

I'm anticipating for the gift, hopefully its for real dear =)

too young to bye

Current playlist : Mengejar hadir-Mu (repeat mode)

I always set repeat mode when ever I'm hook on to a new song that I like. As shown above, Mengejar hadir-Mu is a Christian song sang by an Indon. Mind you, they sing the best worship song after Hillsongs. Eversince my tanta (aunt in Indon) has been placed at Jakarta for working purposes, my family loves Indon worship records. One of the reason for playing this song as repeat mode is also because I want to memorise the lyric for the Youth service which is approaching. Its gonna be great, I can sense it.

Back to the title. Saddening.

Well, I reckon that the title is easy to comprehend? Questioning God, the answers that God appear to human is not direct at all, you use senses, in fact the answer might be another question to you again. At times, even how clear cut the answers would be, we, as human just refuses to accept it and therefore, blame God.

This question has been in me all the time, God knew each and everyone of us even when we were at our mother's womb, and He knows our inner being even before we say hello to the world. His word says :"For God so love the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, and who ever believes in Him, shall not perish but have everlasting life." Simply summarises as, if you believe in Christ, you will have eternity.

The question now in me is, to a person who possesses good traits, not a single white lie he has utter before, he is just simply the best guy you can't find on earth, blameless and spotless, just one thing, he doesn't know the existence and greatness of God, can he enters to the gate of eternity? God hasn't show me this, yet. But always and I'm even been taught since young that I can only enter the gate of heaven unless I'm Christian, and of course I must be a good girl, no lies, righteous and holy before Him.

This recent years, since the very year I understand the world, what's life and death to me, I tend to think any matters seriously. Many people came in and out of my life, when is time to go, I should let go, but ending life at the age of 20th? Unbearable. Attended numeral funerals, young and old, cried even they are not my closes, imagine someone really attach to me leaves me?

Was over MSN chatting with Badrul, my ex-Person in charge then ex-colleague when I was employing at Astro. Received a very very unacceptable news from him though and I still can't get over it till now. If you happened to read Metro/Utusan Melayu newspaper, you would know the case of Pegawai Astro Hilang di Lata Hammer. Sad that the English Publication didn't do a write up for this incident, not even The Star. The victim, Cici Norhayanti Roslan, 24, went for camping with the rest of Astro team leaders at Lata Hammer, Bentong. When its about time to pack and leave, he dived into the water just to embrace the nature one more time before leaving. But unfortunately, he got a cramped, the rest of the TLs heard his loud voice shouting for help, they dived in to get him out. To their surprise, they found him not. He was drown and no where to be seen. After much searching and seeking but failed, they quickly called up the fire dept and went to the police station to lodge a missing report. They went to the waterfall again to search for him, but it was dark at night. The body was found after 3 days. How sad.

I've worked with Cici, he is one of the Team Leader, young and potential guy. He is the humble nice guy category. I supposed is undeniable that he's one handsome charming guy in the KL Centre. It was such a despair after everyone received this shocking news. Everyone mourned over his departure, literally. Although I wasn't exactly under his supervision then, but whenever I faced hiccups handling customers, I would rather go to him than the other TLs. He has the patient, the heart and his sincerity to teach me ways to deal with the customers. However, he still has his strict moments, time to be serious and time to fool around, no doubt that this is why majority of the people there admire him. He was the last TL I said goodbye before leaving Astro KLC, and that marks the memory of me and him.

Cici is married with 3 sons, still babies. I really felt for his wife.

Our life span, you will never know,

Be it long or short, you will have to go,

Appreciation, is all you need to show.